It’s Not Depression. It’s Successful Agoraphobia.

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“Are you depressed? You’re quiet lately.”

I hadn’t noticed that I wasn’t as communicative.

And apparently that was interpreted as me being depressed.

Withdrawn.

I laughed before typing my response back…

Like, actually laughed. Out loud.

“I don’t know when I’ve been this content as an adult,” I responded.

That need to stack every second and every moment with something exciting and showy… It was – for me – a way of keeping my mind occupied because I wasn’t sure what I wanted, but I knew what I was doing at the time wasn’t it.

I’m using my energy differently these days. I no longer let it rush out into the world. And I find myself unable to tolerate solving the same issue over and over again.

I’m not that bored.

Or that boring.

Anymore.

I am now, however, slightly agoraphobic.

Actually… I’ve always been that way.

I’m just finally content with admitting it openly.

Yes… Agoraphobic and thriving.

Published by Heather

I get up at 5:30am every day, no matter what day it is. I make my bed every morning. I drink a modest amount of coffee while reading two digital newspapers and watching the news. I make sure my roommate, George, has food and water. (George is an Australian Cattle Dog.) Then I can start my day. This is my morning routine.

2 thoughts on “It’s Not Depression. It’s Successful Agoraphobia.”

  1. That Chomps wrapper! 😀 I haven’t been here in a while and I find it serendipitous that I visit the same day you post in a while. This is a great reminder for me. For YEARS I’ve been feeling like I should be doing something with my days but never had any idea what I wanted to do. And you would often pop into my head because a lot of your posts have been you at home doing some home thing and being perfectly happy. Maybe that’s all I want to do. Although I do need a cuter pupper to be optimally happy.

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  2. I haven’t stopped by here in a while but I think it’s very serendipitous that the first time you post in several months I just happened to check in. And on this particular subject. I’ve spent literally YEARS feeling like I should be doing something with my days but not really coming up with anything. And I’d often think of you because you post often just doing home things and being really happy doing that. This is an excellent reminder that I don’t have to feel bad if I’m not doing anything. Also trying to stay off the socials where everyone makes it look like they’re all out living their #blessed best lives helps. 😀

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